Unbearable Suffering: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Michael Morris
Michael Morris

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